Word of the Day

According to Merriam-Webster Online, the word of the day is..

Mitigate - verb. To cause to become less harsh or hostile. To make less severe or painful

I need to change my attitude in order to mitigate my life.

Lately, I've just been so unpleasant. Being so sad that I can't even focus on anything but my own crap has left me so bitter, angry, moody, etc. There was a time when my whole life was focused on serving others. But, being so wrapped up in myself has diminished that purpose. I am the bride of Christ, everything I am should be a reflection of Him. I should walk and breathe love, just like Him. I shouldn't have people around me telling me that I'm a real bitch lately. I don't want to have that reputation over me. Because, I naturally cannot live up to that. I am not that, I've just been acting that way lately.

This is going to be a challenge. Consciously stepping back and being just a little bit nicer is going to take a lot of energy. But, if I have to work on getting that part of myself back, then I will. It's not always an effortless change when it comes to "fixing" yourself. It has taken me so much work to get here today, I guess I'll keep fighting. Because it's worth it. I want to bless everyone I come in contact with. I want people to remember me as "that girl who loved so ridiculously much that it could be seen the moment she walked in a room".

God, help me as I try to mitigate my life.