Word of the Day

According to Merriam-Webster Online, the word of the day is..

Mitigate - verb. To cause to become less harsh or hostile. To make less severe or painful

I need to change my attitude in order to mitigate my life.

Lately, I've just been so unpleasant. Being so sad that I can't even focus on anything but my own crap has left me so bitter, angry, moody, etc. There was a time when my whole life was focused on serving others. But, being so wrapped up in myself has diminished that purpose. I am the bride of Christ, everything I am should be a reflection of Him. I should walk and breathe love, just like Him. I shouldn't have people around me telling me that I'm a real bitch lately. I don't want to have that reputation over me. Because, I naturally cannot live up to that. I am not that, I've just been acting that way lately.

This is going to be a challenge. Consciously stepping back and being just a little bit nicer is going to take a lot of energy. But, if I have to work on getting that part of myself back, then I will. It's not always an effortless change when it comes to "fixing" yourself. It has taken me so much work to get here today, I guess I'll keep fighting. Because it's worth it. I want to bless everyone I come in contact with. I want people to remember me as "that girl who loved so ridiculously much that it could be seen the moment she walked in a room".

God, help me as I try to mitigate my life.

"Lord, I praise you.."

"..because you're different and efficient. And you've tweaked my heart just enough so that I can taste and see that you truly are good." -Bradley Hathaway (one of the best poets ever).

Lord, tweak my heart. Completely flip my perspective so that I can see your goodness. Because it is everywhere!! I marvel at the little things you've done for more. Help me to walk in that. God, it's not always so great for me. You watch me struggle. You're around through it all. But, I want to feel you, even in the midst of the hard things. My life is supposed to be in constant worship of you. I want to glorify You, my God. 

I read Psalm 51 over & over & over again the last couple days. That's my prayer to You.. "Unbutton my lips, dear God; I'll let loose with your praise." 

Blessings.

What a weekend (: 

Hamna rode the bus all the way from Baltimore just for a couple days with us. The joke over a FaceTime conversation months ago actually happened! I'm probably more stunned now than Quatro was when we walked into the restaurant to surprise him. And! We got to fulfill double surprises for his birthday. It was a huge blessing for everyone involved. 

Overall, this whole weekend reminded me of the glory of blessings. The ones we give. The ones we receive. The unexpected. The forgotten ones. They're all praise worthy. I felt like I was walking on air marveling at all of them the last few days. And they never stop coming. Even in the midst of uncertainty, blessings show up wherever I walk.

Thank you, God. I love when your joy invades on us (:

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